Leaving my family

Today my family went to the States while I stayed behind to take care of the house and prepare myself mentally for my new career. Even though I knew this day would come, nothing can prepare you for the feeling of leaving your wife and kids. As they went to bed last night, in my mind I was going over all the possible scenarios of their departure. But this morning, as I held my son Noah before putting him in the taxi he said: 'I want daddy to come with me in the car' and instantly my eyes were full of tears and my stomach was in bits. Then as I gave my wife and daughter a kiss goodbye I knew that this job cannot last a lifetime. I love my family too much. A few years, take the money and run... this is the only way to cope and get through the agony of letting that most precious to me behind. As the taxi left, the look on my wife's has been with me all day and I hope to god that she still loves me as much as I love her and hope she understands why I am at this point of my life and why I believe this is the way forward for our family. I cannot imagine a life without my wife and kids and today that became a horrid reality, one which I would not like anyone to experience. As I walk through this house that I will soon be leaving, all the memories, made me cry even more. Anyone considering diving cannot realise the agony of leaving your family. If I could have done this earlier in my life would I have? I don't know because it is the life that I am leading now that brought my wife and I together and gave us two beautiful children. I love all of you and can't wait to hold you all in my arms.... Amo you all.